I'm just going to be straight with you here. When you feel the Holy Spirit prompting you to look at what kind of steward you’ve been of your life, and you agree to whatever means He may employ to reveal what is lacking and renew what’s been neglected , well....just strap on your seat belt and get a firm grip on the “O Crap” handle.
At the start of the year, when everyone was thinking about resolutions, all these different areas of my life came to the forefront. And the word that kept accompanying them over and over again was “stewardship”. What was I doing with what I had been given?
My time, my health, my relationships, my home, my marriage, my talents, my faith, my finances…..all gifts. Was I treating them as such? Was I nurturing, maximizing, tending, investing? Or was I wasting, neglecting, abusing, coveting, indifferent?
When God begins to move, He allows a shift. A sudden level of discomfort with something that needs attention. Until we turn to it with eyes open willing to confront it, that feeling will not go away. Suddenly there were several areas of my life that seemed to be making me shift uncomfortably in my seat, and I knew this would not be a quick fix by any stretch of the imagination.
But no worries! I had it all planned out! We would look at one topic each month and I would share what I was learning in a monthly series here on the blog............phfhaaaa!!!!!!!
Seriously. When will it sink in that God does not work in the neat organized lanes I create for Him?
I wrote a few intro posts (How I landed on "Stewardship" and the lies we believe). And then came Lent. It seemed only natural for my Lenten commitments to fall in line with those themes, and thanks to a friend's encouragement and accountability, it was my most radical Lent to date. Not at all neat and tidy, and really only the beginning.
I’ve struggled with how to continue this series on the blog because the work of renewal is messy, painful, and very personal. While I’m all for sharing the good, bad, and the ugly so we can all grow, I also need to be respectful of the other people this process involves. I'm still figuring that piece out, so stay tuned.
In the meantime, I just want to encourage any of you that may be avoiding that holy discomfort. I did for a long time. Sometimes it feels safer to keep buying into the lies that rob our joy and purpose, than to allow God to peel back those layers of false protection. While we know He offers us something far better, the life we have settled for is familiar; and familiar is comforting, even if we know it's a twisted version of what is good.
Fear and complacency just might be Satan's most effective weapons in the battleground of our mind. He would like nothing more than for us to avoid confronting those areas that God wants to redeem. So he will convince us it's best not to ruffle the waters, and that compared to everyone around us, we're doing just fine. But God is not a God of just fine. He calls us to abundant life, and man is He ever faithful to pour out His grace at our first motion back toward Him. It may not be easy, and it probably won't be quick, but He will be there to help us every step of the way, and promises to see that process through to completion if we continue to trust in Him. If you're there, Friends, my prayers are there with you.